biz owners: permission to experiment
Transcript
I had a call with my coach yesterday, and it's so interesting, and this is why I recommend coaching to everybody, 1:1 coaching because you always get things reflected back to you that you know in your heart. You already know all of this, but your brain kind of hides it from you, so it's nice to see stuff reflected back to you. But anyhow, inevitably, what ends up happening is it's almost like a bag of marbles, and a lot of stuff gets shaken loose while you're talking. But then for the days following, like one, two, three days later, other things pop up that seem kind of unrelated, but it's all related.
So anyhow, I woke up this morning and something had popped into my head, and I just wanted to capture it. And it was this idea ... because on my call with her, we had talked about starting a podcast, which is something I had talked to her about previously. And it was something that I'm pushing off to later in the year. And we talked about that, why I'm pushing it off, why I want to do it, everything in between.
And when I woke up this morning, this thought hit me suddenly, that the reason ... And I had a bunch of reasons why, business-related reasons why I was pushing it off, that made perfectly logical sense. But when I woke up this morning, I realized I was pushing it off because I was afraid to start, not because I think that it's going to be hard or I can't do it, or it's not going to be successful, or it's not going to be good. I believe that it will be all of those things. The reason why I'm not starting is because I'm afraid I'm going to quit. And I think that there's a lot of belief and trauma wrapped up in that.
And I'm so grateful for these past year or two, that I've learned about human design in particular, and that I'm a manifesting generator, because my whole life, I feel like I've been given this label of being a little bit of a flake, because I start a lot of stuff and then I drop it. I quit it. I move on. And for a long time, I thought that meant I was failing. I thought that meant that I wasn't giving it my all. And starting a podcast, starting insert whatever thing, I have this fear that, okay, if I start this thing, or if I start sending out more emails or if I start doing more blog posts, or if I start doing more Instagram posts, or I start to insert whatever thing, how I want to put out content, engage with people, if then I decide, "You know what? This isn't working for me. I don't want to do it," I have this trauma inside of me that says, "Oh, yep. Told you, you're a flake. You can't follow through on anything."
And I guess I'm just talking about this now because I want it to be safe and okay to start things and stop them. Because I know, looking back, all of the things that I started and then stopped, they're all informing what I'm doing today, every single one of them. So each single step, each single thing that I've ever done since I was a child has informed who I am today, what I am doing today. And I want to make it okay for us, in particular in our businesses, to start things and not be worried about whether we stay consistent and stay up with the hustle. Because if it's no longer aligned, we don't need to keep doing it. We just don't.
Meet Sarah
Sarah is an award-winning Designer, Creative Director & Brand Strategist for billion-dollar companies turned entrepreneur. She’s passionate about empowering online coaches and experts with tools that help them build businesses aligned with their values and lives, not the other way around.